Why Would I Write

Category: Random

  • Hurry go on ahead, good things won’t let you wait.

    Diary-like post? Diary-like post.

    I dreamed about work again. Funny. Can’t recall what exactly happened, but I know it had something to do with working at the Big Bad Wolf Sale.

    This week has been good to me. While the past 3 weeks have been spent working everyday, this week I actually managed find time to perform at two gigs. I also got to hang out with my friends for dinner and desserts – something I haven’t done in a while.

    Also caught up to the second last episode of Better Call Saul for this season – looking forward to the finale next week. I’m sad that it’s going to be the last episode until the following year, but also kinda happy it’s over since I’ll be away for the next few weeks so Milin and I won’t be tortured waiting for me to get back to watch it together.

    Na’Vi actually made it to the Starladder Invitational grand final which will take place later tonight. I’m glad they’ve managed to find their form. Will be rooting for them! R.I.P. OG for the early exit. Hopefully they stick together and improve.

    I went shopping for some socks earlier today. Man, those things are expensive – or I’ve been shopping at the wrong places. RM11 for a pair of plain white ankle socks, did they always cost that much?

    Used Uber to get around today because I didn’t want to deal with Mid Valley parking. Encountered two nice gentlemen who were newbies. One of them even forgot to start the trip until halfway which resulted in a cheaper ride for me (kek). Didn’t get any threatening looks from taxi drivers.

    Also got my passport photo done. Those things sure aren’t cheap. Fortunately I don’t have to get them made too often. I think.

    I’m sitting at Doiffee, drinking coffee, vaping and typing this nonsense out. Gonna just chill out and not do much this week. I think I deserve it.

    Next week will be the first time I set foot in Indonesia. Will be there for work. Should be interesting. Also, it’s been a while since I’ve left the country. I’m gonna miss my family. And Snuggles. But I’ll probably be too busy to miss them too much. Any recommendations for what I should/could do there during any down time?

    I’ll probably write. And play games on my tablet or laptop. If I’m not too tired.

    Anyway, until then, sampai ketemu lagi!

  • Pavlov’s Coffee

    I’ve unknowingly conditioned myself to work better when I’m out of my home, drinking coffee and smoking.

    It all started a couple of years ago, when i left work early and decided to do some work at a cafe instead of heading back home. At the cafe, I ordered a cup of long black and drank while I slaved away at my laptop. Little did I know, this was just the beginning.

    When I was done with my work later that evening, I realized that I finished a lot of work in such a short time span. My mind told me, ‘it must have been the coffee, keeping me awake and focused!’ Plus when I’m not home, I actually have a reason to focus on work, since I can’t do anything else. At home, I’d just be distracted by my computer games, guitar or my bed.

    After that day, I continued doing the same thing whenever I had the opportunity. Cup of coffee, cigarette and laptop open. In fact, tonight, I’m doing the same thing.

    I didn’t really think about it until about 10 minutes ago when I was thinking about excuses, and why people use them and realized that I’ve been using excuses myself. Sure, I’m away from my distractions when I’m not at home – but I know people who can work from home just fine. They know how to compartmentalize their time well. Why can’t I?

    I’m probably just not trying hard enough, and now, I’m a victim of conditioning. I can’t work at home at all and I take every opportunity to get out of the house if I want to work. Sure, I get my shit done, but I’m also running away from the problem of self-discipline instead of fixing it.

    Just some food for thought on a Friday night.

  • The Sunk Cost Fallacy is real

    The Sunk Cost Fallacy – I know it’s nothing special, everybody experiences it, but it was only recently I discovered its name. It’s basically a name for when you keep doing something you don’t have to or shouldn’t do because you are already invested in it.

    Anyway, I noticed that it’s something I’ve been going through a lot recently. I spent a lot of money on games on Steam – and even though they were cheap (I only ever buy games on discount or in bundles), I felt the need to complete them because I had already spent money to buy them. However, not all these games are good and when I play bad games, I end up wasting my time (which could be spent playing Dota 2 instead kek). While this doesn’t happen all the time, I do finish some of these bad games, which is often a mistake. I don’t get my money back when I play them, so I have literally no reason to play a game to completion if I don’t have fun doing it.

    Now I’m not saying it’s a good thing to waste money, but all this could have been avoided by being careful with my money in the first place. I’ve learnt to cut off a lot of things in life due to the limited amount of free time I have. Life’s too short to waste – so make sure you do what makes you happy.