Category: Thoughts

  • 2019 Season Finale: Part One

    I’m not sure how many of these I’m going to write, but I thought it’d be good writing practice to just put my thoughts down about the year (and more) before the year ends.


    And so, we’ve arrived at the conclusion of another year. Time to recap what happened over the past fifty-two weeks and plot down what’s going to happen next. This is kind of silly since we all know that time is a man-made construct and only has any value because that’s what we’ve given it.

    Like who said one second had to be one second long? I feel like I’m rambling, but I guess it’s better than not writing anything on this blog. I’ve been slipping up, haven’t been updating as frequently as I have in the past, but that’s okay. I recognize it and I know that it’s not a big deal. I don’t have a thousand readers a day coming to find out what’s been going on in my life, and what’s running through my mind.

    I’ve grown older by another year, and I feel like life has begun to slow down for me. I don’t do as much as I used to because I don’t feel like it. These days, I’m happy just chilling at home with a nice show, some twitch stream or just sitting in a cafe with a coffee and a book, or having a conversation with a friend. I don’t miss partying at all, it’s weird.

    When I was younger, I enjoyed it immensely, don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret (most of) the times I used to spend with my buddies, getting smashed at clubs, eating Maggi Goreng at mamaks after and nursing a hangover the next day.

    Sure, it was a waste of time in hindsight, which is probably why I don’t do it anymore, but it was just something I did in the past. I mean, if I was to turn back time, what else would I have done back then? Spent those nights studying or learning a new language? Probably way more beneficial, but also I wouldn’t have had all these alcohol-fueled experiences I’ve mostly forgotten.

    I guess the main thing, is I had fun doing it, and it’s great to spend time with people close to you. That’s one thing that you shouldn’t take for granted. There’s no telling what’s going to happen to them in the future, you’ll never know when you’ll see each other again, and that reason alone is probably enough. Don’t regret spending time to have fun – if you feel like you could be more productive – start now. Unless something you want to do has a definite deadline (like traveling to the sun after 5 billion years (the estimated time it will take to die, in case you were wondering (wait, you’d be dead long before that))) – it’s never too late to do something.

    The worst thing you can do is sit around regretting something you didn’t do in the past. Be the change in your own life, make the most of the time you have left.

    On another note, I used to read my Facebook ‘what happened x years ago’ notifications daily. These days the only time I click on it is by accident or when somebody makes a comment or reaction to something in the past. Not sure why I stopped, but it hasn’t affected my life. Like religion. Or horoscopes. And personality tests.

  • The Power of Prayer

    Why do people even bother praying? Whenever something bad happens to someone, people say send your prayers to X or keep them in your thoughts and prayers. Does it even matter if you do?

    I keep hearing all the time that something is ‘God’s plan‘ so why even bother trying to ask for otherwise? If something is going to happen because it’s destined or predetermined, then what are you praying for?

    Isn’t trying to change an outcome going against your god’s plan? Why are you not going along with it? Are you saying he/she/it is wrong? Can god be wrong?

    Why would god listen to the words from your lips? Unless you’re saying you’re so powerful that god listens to you. If that’s the case, then why can’t you pray for everything you want in life and get it? People say you can’t pray for selfish things – isn’t praying for someone’s health selfish in a way? You want someone to survive so you can spend more time with them. If you didn’t intend on ever seeing that person again, you wouldn’t have bothered.

    What if someone else was praying for the same person’s death? Who does god listen to then? Does god even listen? How does god decide who to listen to?

    If god doesn’t listen, then why pray? Why aren’t we questioning god’s ‘shitty’ decisions in the first place?

    “Oops, I accidentally gave your grandma cancer. Deal with it.”

    Does an almighty and powerful god need to listen to people to know what to do? Does god even give a shit?

    Pray if it makes you feel better, or if you want to. Just don’t pray and expect anything to happen. If anything does happen, know that it’s because you worked to achieve it, or it was a coincidence. It wasn’t because you prayed for it.

    Change things you know you can instead of trying to invoke some mysterious force in the sky. It’s much more effective.


    Here’s a wonderful bit by a comedian I came across a few months ago on Netflix:

    Check out Daniel Sloss on Netflix
  • Too Many Choices

    Too Many Choices

    Thanks to the advent of fast internet connections, I’ve been spoilt for choice when it comes to things I want to waste my time on when I’m in front of the computer. Previously, I was limited by the amount of space I had in my hard drive. Terrabytes weren’t a thing yet, so I couldn’t store all my favorite MP3s and movies. Then came CD-ROM burners, which helped, but not as much as external hard drives. Those used to cost way more for less storage than you get now, and beyond the occasional thumb drive (to replace the lost ones I got for free from events) I haven’t purchased one in ages.

    my local MP3 collection

    Now I don’t even back up most of my files on physical media anymore. Thanks to Google Drive and Photos, there isn’t a need. Not to mention, Google does a great job of automatically sorting and tagging your photos (I know people care about their privacy, but I enjoy the convenience of typing noodles in the search bar to remember where I’ve been). Machines have come a long way thanks to all the captchas we’ve been doing.

    Google Photos

    If you want to watch a movie these days, just load up Netflix, or your favorite streaming site, type in a movie name and click watch. It’s that convenient. If you want to listen to music, just load up Spotify or YouTube, type in a song name and there you go! No more waiting for songs to download to your PC and launching them in a media player to listen to them. I still do the latter for music, but streaming services are great to check out new artists I have not listened to before.

    But like with all things, there are good and bad sides to them. While people might see it as a ‘first world problem’, it’s a problem nonetheless – having too many choices makes it difficult to decide what you want to consume. Yes, that’s right. You ever sit down in front of your TV, and browse Netflix endlessly looking for something to watch? I know I’m guilty. I see a show I think I might be interested in but I don’t watch it immediately. I add it to ‘My (neverending) List’, and look for something else that I might want to watch. Repeat this for maybe half an hour and decide that I’d rather do something else instead of watching a show. Come back to Netflix a week later and repeat the same process. It’s the same with Spotify. I have playlists of countless unwatched shows and unlistened music.

    my Netflix playlist

    While it’s not an issue having large playlists of unconsumed content, it could be a problem one day – when record companies or movie distributors lose the rights to the material, leaving empty spots in your playlists. And then you kick yourself for not checking them out earlier. Fortunately, there’s always the alternative coughpiratebaycough but most of the time you’ll look for something, download it and end up forgetting about it (at least that’s what I do).

    I guess it’s more of my consumption habit than a problem of too many choices. I should learn to pick and choose and stick with it. Which is why I’ve been choosing not to finish some games in my Steam library. When I feel a game is more trouble than it’s worth to complete, I uninstall and move on.

    my Steam library

    I’ve been doing the same thing with music and shows too. If I don’t absolutely enjoy something, I turn it off and jump to the next in line. I don’t have that much time in my life, shouldn’t I spend it on something else that I like instead? This philosophy has helped me to clean up my playlist (it’s still long but I’m getting there) and it is also why I play so much Dota 2.


    Also, interesting video about choices: